Final Preparations

Today was a busy day. It started out with a trip to the doctor. Then some errands to a few stores buying the last few things for the hospital and getting the kids a hospital bag ready to keep them busy. And trying to find the last few things for Graham, like white preemie socks, which have been really hard to find around here. Making phone calls to photographers to be at the hospital, only to capture our hello and goodbye in such a short period of time. Then we went to the funeral home to set up arrangements for Graham and services that will follow. What a weird thing to do. It just seemed so wrong to be looking at programs and caskets and burial plots while my baby still kicks inside me through the entire meeting. So wrong to be planning to put him to rest before he's even made his entrance into the world. But it is what it is and this is what we can do for him. His burial outfit was already at the funeral home, it's so little and so precious. So many emotions and so little time left before Graham makes his grand arrival. And yet we're so excited to meet him, and I'm so glad to have way more things to do to get ready than I have time. It keeps me from overthinking everything.