We'll know more when he's here....

Today I had an appointment with the perinatologist. Always nerveracking for me. I still have to check first thing to see his heartbeat, but I know it's there, just a security issue for me. Next his head, which today is looking good, and then we just have fun looking at our baby and the U/S technician Leslie is so sweet and snaps lots of pics for us. He is still growing well and things look good. We saw Dr. Ball today and he said more of the same, "we'll know more when he's here." That should be a reassuring phrase, but for some reason it's not really. It makes me so scared. So scared to get my hopes up, and so scared to let him go. So we're still in limbo mode. I ran across this blog yesterday and let me tell you it was perfect timing. It was a good reminder that no matter what happens, a mother loves her child. You have to start by reading Nella's birth story here. And today's post was exactly what I needed, and a tear jerker, so have your kleenexes ready and read it here. It was so worth my time to read these.